Saturday, November 06, 2004
Je tombe dans l'Amour avec ce gars et ce gars ne saura jamais que je sois dans l'amour avec lui. Il ne pense pas de moi pourquoi devrait si je gaspille mes mots et traverse la si beaucoup de douleur. Maintenant tout je peux penser d'est qu'il ne saura jamais que je l'aime si beaucoup de. Il me fait juste me sentir si spécial et il me stupéfie avec ses mots de bienveillance et d'amour. Il me fait le vouloir de plus en plus. Chaque nuit sur le je juste cri de wanna sachant qu'il l'aime et je ne peux jamais l'être je vraiment ne sais pas que je juste l'aime si. Il fait me devient fou pour penser de lui et moi pleurniche le prend juste plus parce que je vraiment tombe dans l'amour avec lui et il me fait heureux et je souris quand je le vois qu'ou entend sa voix. Dieu que je suis si stupide ! Je sais qu'il ne l'aimera jamais comme moi je suis juste un étudiant en deuxième anée d'université stupide qui tombe dans l'amour avec un gars. Cette fois c'est vrai. C'est plus vrai ce pascual et Antonio plus vrai alors vous jamais saurez. Je veux marcher juste jusqu'à lui mal et dit si que j'ai quelque chose pour dire, « je sais que nous vraiment ne me connaît pas mais je commence à tomber Dans l'amour avec vous profondément et foument et oh si mal, je veux être avec vous si beaucoup il me conduit fou " Dieu comment je pleurniche la position le fait que vous jamais ne saurez jamais. Vous le gars juste merveilleux et stupéfiant parfait et je garde juste tomber de plus en plus dans l'amour avec vous. Quel mauvais avec moi je sais-il que vous n'aimera jamais me soutient et toujours je soigne si beaucoup de.. ça alors je suis huh assez stupide ?
(whoa really cool, translated this whole thing into french..
but i really do wonder isit correct..
i think it would be a little diff in meaning )
just had choir
so sad.. the instructor will be leaving us next sat...
i think the instructor is quite cute.. *blink blink*
wonder will he be comin back to intruct us again nxt yr..
Thursday, November 04, 2004
Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake
and reach for hands that are not there
It takes me a minute to like you
and hour to love you
but to forget you takes a life time.
i learn to never love with all my heart as it only ends in aching.
i use to believe in fairytales
it always have happy endings
but now i noe reality doesn't. reality hurts .
Should I smile because you're happy and in love..again.
Or cry, because it's not with me?..
Missing you even though I know nothing can be changed..
We are so near yet so far
Wishing for one day
When you would come to me
And tell me how you feel
Cos I'm still waiting..
It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return..
It hurts more and more..
as I look at your photo longer and longer..
I could have the worst day and the worst things on my mind,
but when i see you and start to talk to you..
you make it all go away.
All of it.
But I hope whoever it is
that makes your day as bright as
you make mine knows how lucky they are...
The worse feeling is when the person you love is standing before you, yet doesn't know how you feel..
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
woo.. cool man
SLC china having chalet.. haha..
been half a year since SLC ended..
and we are still contacting each other..
haha.. though i don realy noe i can make it for the chalet..
but will try my best man..
miss all the pals there..
still remb the time we spent together..
discussing on nuclear weapons and war and stuff..
though some session was boring..
but over all was real fun..
remb the last night??
that was the best man..
still remb i had this bad migrane..
but lucky got the help of friends and panadol..
was able to enjoy that night..
that night was really wonderful..
we shed when we said goodbye to ech other...
so emotional.. but.. who cares..
we should also not forget that.. haha..
china and aust became friends in the end..
no more enermy.. haha...
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
found the meaning of my name
it was the name of a 6th-century saint who was killed by a tumour on her neck. It was also the name of a character in Shakespeare's comedy 'As You Like It'. The name audrey also means noble strenght.
guess i have the ans now..
"why!!!
donnoe wat i'm thinkin man.."
why keep things to myself..
why make myself suffer..
today did not go attend dnt couse..
feel so bad...first time i escape..
but.. was busy.. so cant blame..
will be going tml..
if not teacher will scold...
Monday, November 01, 2004
bring me back to reality..
shake me up from my dreams!!
i guess i have to return back to reality..
stop dreamin now..
stop!!
now i think i did something really wrong
wrong timing..
how i wish i could turn the clock back..
i'm realy sorri..
can anybody just helpme..
guess i cant change anything now..
but can you just change your mindsept..
i may not be able to help but it now depends on you
you your own to save yourselve..
thats all i can say now...
i did not noe that it would affect you that bad..
so.. guess.. i did something wrong at the wrong time..
i really hope you quickly wake up and do wat you are suppose to do...
don put your future at stake..
that all wat i want to say
feeling sad right now
wont write why..
but just let time heal..
"can i cry on your shoulder"
Sunday, October 31, 2004
ok.. i am dead bored..
can anybody talk to me..
i need a shoulder to leaned on!!
haha... i'm going crazy...
bad me..
but i don care..
ok.. ya.. i did something bad..
but guess it was the only approach i could think of..
ok.. now i'm feelin bad...
but hope i am putting the msg clear..
